The Work Of Purification

So personal stuff came to a head early in 2010. Must be something in the stars, or the numerology of it, but right smack dab in the middle of the 2010 Olympics (and right smack dab in the middle of my exams), I’ve had to review everything in my life going back 7 years, and to get all the facts about me in order. It’s been a very overwhelming, gut-wrenching, and at times utterly paranoid excursion into self-evaluation, and it has tested everything. And I confess I passed the test and we will never sever.

Everything except Facebook, that is, though for unrelated reasons. I now have a reduced presence on that data-sucking, privacy-averse dump of a place. No offense to my many FB friends. It was a very difficult decision to make, as FB offers many unique opportunities to interact with people near and far. I understand why you stay there. I’m simply uninterested in constantly poring over the continually renewed privacy policies. Life’s too short for privacy policies. And what a dump.

I’ve been to hell and back in the past month, and I’ve dragged my family there and back too. It could’ve been a spectacular mess. But we’ve cleaned up well.

More on this after exam #2 is done and the situation reaches full closure.

One Fine Day

5:00 AM – awaken and start reading Stiegler’s Technics and Time.

5:20 AM – 20 pages in the ’emergency laundry’ thing occurs (potty training the toddler who must have at least 3 pairs of clean ginch for daycare).

5:25 AM – other chores interrupt the ’emergency laundry’. whilst sorting poopy ginch, discover our 30 pound cat has created what we (try to) affectionately call a “Carlyle Log”. Plug nose, scoop, dump, flush, sweep, spray, scrub, breathe.

5:35 AM – while this is going on both cats begin to howl for food. wash water dishes, dump old food, put in new food, new water, all in random order.

5:45 AM – make bed, pack snacks while spouse is with washing machines in the basement.

6:00 AM – return to bed. 15 minute catnap (running on empty).

6:15 AM – awaken again. attempt more Stiegler. 2 pages in I realize I need to know more about Dasein. So on to Heidegger. 45 minutes of flummoxery here, back and forth, WTF is going on…

7:00 AM – laundry complete. fold/put away, prep toddler’s clothes/accoutrements for the day.

7:30 AM – spouse leaves for work. 15 more minutes of the Stiegler-Heidegger mental exercises, then

7:45 AM – toddler is up. trains out. then oh it’s pee pee time. to the can, make a ‘potty train’ (big potty-stool-small potty). toddler switches around for about 5 minutes then squirts about 1 fl oz in the small one.”you want a sticker. you want circles…” wash hands dry hands put on band aid, put about 40 pounds of TP in the toilet while I’m not looking. “judiciously flush this” for about 10 minutes. wash hands dry hands. sticker, circles. toddler is silent and motionless for 30 seconds…

8:15 AM – yep, that was half an hour there. breakfast, which consists of asking for things and then refusing each in sequence: eggs, cheerios+soy milk, toast/margarine, grapes, oranges, rice crackers (not given).

8:40 AM – this is interrupted by a “you want to pee pee”. back to the can. wait three minutes during the potty train scaling, then give up. underpants back on. hands washed, dried.

8:50 AM – toddler attends to her trains and track segments. packing of supplies. daddy changes out of pyjamas, etc.

9:00 AM – already way behind schedule, dress up the toddler. brush hair, hair elastics, wipe face, boots, coat. then daddy’s shoes, hoodie, umbrella, bag. shut curtains, expel cats from bedrooms. shut doors, set alarm, march up the hallway.

9:20 AM – out in front of apartment in the pissing rain. toddler dawdling. we get a half block en route to the co-op car. fuck i forgot the fucking car seat. ok let’s go back home and get the car seat. annoyed toddler trudges back in wid me, past the mailwoman, past the electricians invading the strata bldg.

9:30 AM – long story short, back out in front as before plus car seat hoisted over shoulder. a shitload to carry, but toddler insists on alternating btw a dead stop (to provide commentary on every car we stroll past) and what i’m starting to recognize as the ‘drunken dawdle’

9:45 AM – after much impatience from me and stubborn immobility from the toddler, we finally make it to the coop car (parked only two blocks away from our bldg). it took this to get her to finally move: “I’m James, you’re Thomas, and we’re racing. Let’s race to the car!” To be sure, I’ll need to invent something else in a week’s time.

10:00 AM – car de-fobbed, keys out of lockbox, car seat installed, toddler installed in that, anti-theft bar off, bags on floor, walkaround complete, mirrors adjusted, mileage entered in book, defroster on. It’s still cats and dogs. I’m soaked head to toe, but relieved to be moving 2 hours and 15 minutes later than intended.

10:05 AM – pull into the drive-thru coffee shop (an indulgence reserved only for such rushed, rain-soaked days), this goes unexpectedly quickly.

10:10 AM – upon exiting the drive thru, toddler cries “you want to make a pee pee”. stop at home? or wait until daycareмаси, I ask. “stop at home”. bien sur.

10:15 AM – back home, in the door, coat/shoes/pants off, on potty. again, 1 fl oz of stuff. wipe, cram TP in the can, ash, dry, sticker, circles. then coat/shoes/pants back on, back to the car.

10:25 AM – back on the road.

10:50 AM – drop daughter at daycare. after organizing all her stuff, stuffing it into cubbies, etc, we kiss see ya later.

11:10 AM – leave the childcare centre. drop kip at the gym locker.

11:15 AM – grab early lunch to beat the awful noon lineups. read more Stiegler, pendant.

1:15 PM – to the gym. 1000 calories shedded (I only get in 3x per week, so I must go hardcore like this). plus shower.

2:25 PM – answer work emails + student inquiries. great that students are bloggin and taking an interest. not so great that a tentative contract will not be moving forward after all.

3:00 PM – back to the Stiegler. at 4:35 I break to write a self-indulgent post about my day. I’ve only got until 5:15 PM until the daycare closes, after all…

5:03 PM – finish this post and hurry off to the daycare!… total intermittent study time: 4h55min

Twitter Weekly Updates for 2009-11-08

  • completely puzzled why ppl are lining up for the H1N1 vaccine: http://is.gd/4LDWH #
  • still no internet/email at home. Twitter or SMS will be answered more promptly #
  • woke startled from a dream wherein cops fine me $900 for a car I abandoned 10 yrs ago, & aliens abduct me for shooting video w/a mobile #
  • RIP Claude Levi-Strauss, at 100: http://is.gd/4Mc4X #
  • finally the self-employed can pay into and collect EI (longstanding no-brainer, life-ruiner comes to an end)- http://is.gd/4Mch8 #
  • leveraging insomnia and a perilously close deadline – settin em up and knockin em down in the wee hours #
  • why ACTA is bad for copyright (and hence communications media) in Canada: http://is.gd/4MMKv #
  • Got isa saying "borked" all the time now. #geekintraining #
  • blustery week of nonstop piles of things tado. final pin to knock down starts in 35 min: http://is.gd/4Oq0Q sleep, old friend, I'm on my way #
  • …and the ship (what ship? my ship! my pirate ship!) sails into calmer waters… #

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Twitter Weekly Updates for 2009-11-01

  • Simondon shuts out Dewey, w/assists by Feenberg, Stiegler. Series still too close to call. #fuckhockeysticksexceptasregardsclimatechange 😉 #
  • I'm co-mediating this workshop on Digital Media Literacy and Creative Commons in YVR on Nov. 5th: http://is.gd/4D3V4 #
  • #SciAm has gone into the toilet this past year. tar sands apologists & oil tycoons writing articles, auto-CEO roundtables! #scienceFAIL #
  • evaluating other ppl's writing in standardized ways sucks almost as much soul as fry-flippin. difference? i guess I haven't poisoned anyone #
  • Copyrights And Wrongs: wiki page (with slides+vids+baubles) for our CC workshop on Thurs Nov 5 – http://is.gd/4ImNg @KateMilberry @spoyntz #
  • first we take BCSLSB, then we take NSLSC! aw, what no prepayment penalties? RBC don't get no predatory interest-slavery? go away, scumbags #
  • Telus sucks. Internet has been out 24 hours+ with no fix or explanation. worst service EVER. #
  • anyone recommend a good ISP (besides Shaw or Telus) in YVR that can get me up and running today? #
  • Telus locked me out of my account. I cannot cancel anything (online/phone), service is still out, and they refuse to answer my questions! #
  • I think Telus is breaking the law by refusing me customer service. Certainly breaking their own TOS, but the law too #
  • I guess Shaw it is. It's really a troubling state of affairs where one requires a lawyer to cancel an ISP/phone account #

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Twitter Weekly Updates for 2009-10-25

  • apartment listed, refinancing process underway, renovating, cleaning, crossing fingers on all 8 of the tentacles I have reluctantly grown #
  • The Onion is very truthful, unfunny news with stories written this way: http://is.gd/4qeaA #
  • if anyone has any temp work available I need some very much! i also have some cool pro audio gear for sale… #
  • why does no one w/a mortgage ever tell the mortgageless how drab & strategic life becomes once one gets in the property game? fuckers. #
  • cult of finance advisors has now indoctrinated me: pay off studloans w/equity & up the mortg. at var rate during historic low=$ probs solved #
  • RT @datalaundry: CRTC requires ISPs to be more transparent about traffic mgmt http://bit.ly/1aSJJp #
  • BIG congrats to April, Hendrik, and Peter et al for becoming the poster kids for mobile social media in YVR! – http://bit.ly/22XJgL #
  • so it's a refinancing & not a property sale. short term sanity improves. #
  • need about 20 more hrs per week to get everything done. thinking sleep is for the chop #
  • say no to takedowns, say yes to Yes Men! RT @Joi: EFF defends Yes Men parody of US Chamber of Commerce http://bit.ly/1U0jK8 #

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Twitter Weekly Updates for 2009-10-18

  • what sort of monstrous lowlifes would light a sleeping man on fire? two blocks from my apartment, no less… #
  • RT @kk: Govt cutbacks – not fault of Olympiad http://bit.ly/3yxHkB – JH:yes but a false dichotomy – many who oppose 2010 also oppose Gateway #
  • financial advisors are from another planet. as if the comparison of long term costs vs near term sanity was reducible to a balance sheet. #
  • RT @hollykruse: So if Google released the Online Brain Succubus, everyone would want that too? Oh, wait… #
  • there goes that Hockey Tweet in Canada thing again. just like a radio-live-transmissiuh-uhn #whatwouldorsonwellesdowithtwitter? #

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Twitter Weekly Updates for 2009-10-11

  • RT @asterix: Mobile Myths and Reality. follow this de-hyping series on mobiles and socio-economics: http://is.gd/3Z0uv #
  • ArsTechnica on the arrest of G20 protwester; sheepishly (and wrongly) suggests Neoluddism for activists: http://is.gd/3Z10E . discuss? #
  • 1st day back at 'em after 3-day flu. conquered gym and Don Ihde in one sunny coup de main. remembering again why i do this. profoundly 🙂 #
  • OK now that the Google Wave invite shit has died down, how's fuckin' Google Wave? change yr (miserable) life? serious. let me know #
  • can't wait to see how Telus/Bell fuck up the iPhone. #wifirules #3Gsucks #hello?SIMcard? #
  • Pirate Party of Canada (now legit!) Vancouver meetup is on Oct 19, VAG (south side), 7 PM: http://is.gd/41kPb #
  • watching students frantically make paper chains #
  • HAHAHAH! RT @dubber: I drove Bono around Auckland in a van once. I had every opportunity to take it off a cliff. I've failed us all. #
  • Ont govt spends a billion on proprietary ehealth [scandal] s/w while cheap open source alternative is quietly adopted: http://is.gd/4cea2 #
  • butchering flightless birds for food. yeah, i'm impressed. i'm thankful i'm not a turkey #

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Twitter Weekly Updates for 2009-10-04

  • why is the PhD degree such an isolating experience? gah. #
  • Stevie Wonder's Innervisions=great mental therapy right now. #
  • http://is.gd/3NOPY – "and we screamed into that bitter night/'hey 3+1 makes 4' " = Enlightenment triumphs over inner city misery? #
  • CDN govt attempted to censor scholarly debate on Israel/Palestine by threatening SSHRC funding: http://www.caut.ca/pages.asp?page=826 #
  • apes evolved from us. wow: http://is.gd/3QZyN #
  • everything is OK: http://is.gd/3R5FO . so many kinds of awesome. #
  • evertime there's a good ol hockey game, that fangled twitter set tells y'about it in spades (=distributed sports announcing) #

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Twitter Weekly Updates for 2009-09-27

  • c'mon CRTC, make like the FCC: http://is.gd/3x5Xa – did I just say Canada should follow the US lead on something? #bizarroworld #
  • speaking of CULTS, Frosh week just gave way to CULT WEEK at SFU. oh the fun doesn't stop. #
  • pushed out Comp Def Essay #2 (theorizing participatory culture). Well, the 1st (and hardest) draft, anyway. 1100 wds was never so hard. #
  • getting up-to-the-minute blasts from the Web 2.0 past now that I've patched in the band's myspace account on Tweetdeck #
  • ok so the FCC is doing cool things, Wikipedia's founder opposes net neutrality, AND I agree with Bill Vander Zalm on something? #
  • …next thing you know Lenny Kravitz will release something listenable…#bizarroworld #
  • RT @isohunt: Pirate Party of Canada needs 150 more signatures to register as a federal party. http://bit.ly/5wDbf #
  • getting lots of obvious spam from y'all over the twitnets. curious if my account has also sent some to you (DMs or regular updates)? #
  • actually got through every single slide as planned in CMNS253 today. #nofannyingabout #
  • each morning on the train (tabloids all over the floor etc) Is laughs & mockingly says "newspapers". I too laugh at them: http://is.gd/3IcWn #

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Twitter Weekly Updates for 2009-09-20

  • I'm at sfu burnaby w/ @kumar. http://bit.ly/3j3L04 #
  • I'm at SFU Surrey (250, 13450 102 Ave, at 102nd Avenue, btw 134 and 135, Surrey). http://bit.ly/uPgau #
  • I just ousted @kumar as the mayor of SFU Surrey on @foursquare! http://bit.ly/uPgau #
  • "I see progress in paint peeling/I see progress in leaky ceilings" #
  • I'm at sfu burnaby (8888 university dr, burnaby). http://bit.ly/3j3L04 #
  • RT @Dutchphoto: RT @andreareimer: 5 star day for E.S.Family Place 30th Birthday. Grateful for their support over the yrs http://is.gd/3sOQi #
  • RT @obinine: Swift public relations campaign couldn’t save a successful lawyer that ran down and killed a bike courier ~ http://ow.ly/q7GQ #
  • OK Adorno is 4 suckers. Why'd I get suckered? #fuckingcomps #

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